"This is the way things are. You can’t change nature." 

Today was a good day. Got a lot done. Saw some very good, dear, precious friends. Made new friends. Did a photo shoot. Handled a lot of work. Took all three of my dogs out (which doesn’t happen very often since my accident). Inspired new people. And got even closer to my parents. 

I get told how much I inspire people on a daily basis and it truly means a lot yet I don’t always hear it. It doesn’t register to me half the time because I don’t remember going through the majority of what I went through. But every once in a while I will come across a total stranger who will tell me how amazing my smile is and my outlook and they finally ask me about what I went through. When I tell, they look at me in shock and admiration and tell me they can’t believe it’s only been a year. (Almost two). They tell me how stunned they are that I can be this positive and have such a radiating smile after all of it. They always ask me how…and I will tell you. You will understand but you won’t TRULY get it until you experience it yourself:
There is no other way to be. 

I smile…because I can. 
I am alive. 
#goodnight #alive #amputee #doubleamputee #amputeelife #amputeeproblems #beautiful #staybeautiful

"This is the way things are. You can’t change nature."

Today was a good day. Got a lot done. Saw some very good, dear, precious friends. Made new friends. Did a photo shoot. Handled a lot of work. Took all three of my dogs out (which doesn’t happen very often since my accident). Inspired new people. And got even closer to my parents.

I get told how much I inspire people on a daily basis and it truly means a lot yet I don’t always hear it. It doesn’t register to me half the time because I don’t remember going through the majority of what I went through. But every once in a while I will come across a total stranger who will tell me how amazing my smile is and my outlook and they finally ask me about what I went through. When I tell, they look at me in shock and admiration and tell me they can’t believe it’s only been a year. (Almost two). They tell me how stunned they are that I can be this positive and have such a radiating smile after all of it. They always ask me how…and I will tell you. You will understand but you won’t TRULY get it until you experience it yourself:
There is no other way to be.

I smile…because I can.
I am alive.
#goodnight #alive #amputee #doubleamputee #amputeelife #amputeeproblems #beautiful #staybeautiful

Defeat is only momentary. Can’t believe how hard this is right now. But it won’t last long. I always win. Because I have it in me to win. Least I got my Bug to keep me company while I fight this all night long without any sleep. This will be night #2. #chevy #chevypuppy #amputee #doubleamputee #amputeelife #amputeeproblems #nervepain #thestruggleisreal #beautiful #staybeautiful

Defeat is only momentary. Can’t believe how hard this is right now. But it won’t last long. I always win. Because I have it in me to win. Least I got my Bug to keep me company while I fight this all night long without any sleep. This will be night #2. #chevy #chevypuppy #amputee #doubleamputee #amputeelife #amputeeproblems #nervepain #thestruggleisreal #beautiful #staybeautiful

sssqueaky
sssqueaky:

My #wcw is my fucking self. Because I went from one thing to another. Because I’ve gone through hell and back again. Because I have accomplished more than any of you could in one year. Because I beat the odds. I used to dance competitively, teach gymnastics, model, walk in 6 inch heels better than anyone I’ve ever seen, and I was a good citizen. Then, I had an accident. And I had a -1% chance to live. And instead of giving up, I fought. I became a better citizen. I told my doctor I was tougher than him. I got off kidney dialysis when that’s something I should be on for the rest of my life. I lost both my legs. I lost two organs. I still have my stomach cut open over a foot long and five inches wide. I get judged everywhere I go with one look. I deal with something that takes a fucking strong soul and an impenetrable heart. I lost a huge piece of myself that day that I will never get back. But most importantly, I’ve gained strength. Strength that doesn’t come from lifting weights or small learning experiences. Strength that doesn’t even come after losing someone. But instead of giving up, I had a great support system to help me believe that I can do this. I struggle every day. I struggle every moment. And I will struggle for the rest of my life. This is the card that I was dealt. Nothing I asked for or deserved. Now I’m prepared for this lifetime that is unfair, in life I fight from the bottom to the top. In this life I had to fight for all that I got, it hurts but I still won’t stop, til my casket drops. #fuckyou #amputee #doubleamputee #hipamputee #hipdisarticulation #amputeelife #amputeeproblems #prosthetic #prosthetics #etownconcrete #struggle #iwillwin #dontjudgeme #insteadjudgeyourself #whathaveyoudone? #illmakeitoutalive #imadeitoutalive #sssqueaky #beautiful #staybeautiful

sssqueaky:

My #wcw is my fucking self. Because I went from one thing to another. Because I’ve gone through hell and back again. Because I have accomplished more than any of you could in one year. Because I beat the odds. I used to dance competitively, teach gymnastics, model, walk in 6 inch heels better than anyone I’ve ever seen, and I was a good citizen. Then, I had an accident. And I had a -1% chance to live. And instead of giving up, I fought. I became a better citizen. I told my doctor I was tougher than him. I got off kidney dialysis when that’s something I should be on for the rest of my life. I lost both my legs. I lost two organs. I still have my stomach cut open over a foot long and five inches wide. I get judged everywhere I go with one look. I deal with something that takes a fucking strong soul and an impenetrable heart. I lost a huge piece of myself that day that I will never get back. But most importantly, I’ve gained strength. Strength that doesn’t come from lifting weights or small learning experiences. Strength that doesn’t even come after losing someone. But instead of giving up, I had a great support system to help me believe that I can do this. I struggle every day. I struggle every moment. And I will struggle for the rest of my life. This is the card that I was dealt. Nothing I asked for or deserved. Now I’m prepared for this lifetime that is unfair, in life I fight from the bottom to the top. In this life I had to fight for all that I got, it hurts but I still won’t stop, til my casket drops. #fuckyou #amputee #doubleamputee #hipamputee #hipdisarticulation #amputeelife #amputeeproblems #prosthetic #prosthetics #etownconcrete #struggle #iwillwin #dontjudgeme #insteadjudgeyourself #whathaveyoudone? #illmakeitoutalive #imadeitoutalive #sssqueaky #beautiful #staybeautiful